I can't quite put my finger on it......
Ohh yeahhh.
If you've been a reader for awhile {hiiiii}, you know how much I loved my long hair. Sure, it was thick and crazy and took me forever to do, but I loved it. The way it looked, the way it felt, the compliments I received with it, I had loved it for years. Ever since I grew it out when (on a whim) I cut my hair into a below the chin bob after finding out I was pregnant with Brooklyn.
Then something happened. I gained weight (bet you weren't expecting that). But not just any weight. "I'm so excited I'm pregnant this is so fun I can't wait to have a bump so everyone else can know too did we just pass a steak n shake oooooh kraft mac and cheese we gotta make this!" weight. Needless to say, I felt very self conscious by my 9th month. In my head, my short hair made my bloated face even bigger. In my head, long hair equaled hidden weight.
That stuck with me for 5 years. Through baby weight loss, another pregnancy, more baby weight loss. It was like a security blanket to me. Sure my face was getting bigger but hey? I have great hair, right?!
It was all totally unnecessary. Not the length, because I still think long hair is amazing & beautiful. But what I perceived it as. Security. I didn't need all this hair to hide behind, to "protect me". So last week? I made an appointment. And 30 minutes later....
If you've been a reader for awhile {hiiiii}, you know how much I loved my long hair. Sure, it was thick and crazy and took me forever to do, but I loved it. The way it looked, the way it felt, the compliments I received with it, I had loved it for years. Ever since I grew it out when (on a whim) I cut my hair into a below the chin bob after finding out I was pregnant with Brooklyn.
Then something happened. I gained weight (bet you weren't expecting that). But not just any weight. "I'm so excited I'm pregnant this is so fun I can't wait to have a bump so everyone else can know too did we just pass a steak n shake oooooh kraft mac and cheese we gotta make this!" weight. Needless to say, I felt very self conscious by my 9th month. In my head, my short hair made my bloated face even bigger. In my head, long hair equaled hidden weight.
That stuck with me for 5 years. Through baby weight loss, another pregnancy, more baby weight loss. It was like a security blanket to me. Sure my face was getting bigger but hey? I have great hair, right?!
It was all totally unnecessary. Not the length, because I still think long hair is amazing & beautiful. But what I perceived it as. Security. I didn't need all this hair to hide behind, to "protect me". So last week? I made an appointment. And 30 minutes later....
Gone. Actually, donated. To Locks of Love. I cannot explain how amazing it feels to know that something I thought was the only thing making me look beautiful is actually going to make someone FEEL beautful? A sweet girl who may be craving that sense of security. A totally different kind of security. It's extremely heart warming.
And now? I'm actually really loving this new look. I thought for sure I was going to be bummed out. But I'm saving on time (less than 10 minute to blow dry compared to what used to be over a half hour) and shampoo & conditioner (if I can just remember I don't need a whole friggin palm full of conditioner anymore). I feel a bit more chic. Maybe one day I'll have super long hair again, I don't know. Right now though? I'm feeling really good about this decision.
Warm fuzzies? Check!
And now? I'm actually really loving this new look. I thought for sure I was going to be bummed out. But I'm saving on time (less than 10 minute to blow dry compared to what used to be over a half hour) and shampoo & conditioner (if I can just remember I don't need a whole friggin palm full of conditioner anymore). I feel a bit more chic. Maybe one day I'll have super long hair again, I don't know. Right now though? I'm feeling really good about this decision.
Warm fuzzies? Check!
I think it looks great and it is really awesome that you donated it to Locks of Love!
ReplyDeleteYou just described me and my attachment to my hair right now. I cut it right before I got pregnant with Thad, then got fat, and well, yeah, now it's my blanket and I know it and I'm soooooo not even close to getting rid of it. Maybe in another couple years. However, I am pondering a color change... ;)
ReplyDeleteWow, recently I've been thinking a whole lot about cutting and donating my hair. I've had it long (about your same length) for about 7 years and the change is a little scary. Reading this was just what I needed. I could use a new look and spending less time drying/styling it would be great (It actually takes me almost an hour to blow-dry because I have a TON of hair and it retains moisture like crazy.. Also, I love the idea of donating it. Thanks for the push I needed! :)
ReplyDeleteYou look amazing!! Love the new style. Totally awesome of you to donate to Locks of Love.
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